The count down begins and as I'm closer to the birth of my second child, I am experiencing all but familiar behaviours as I did with Lucas such as:
Insomnia - Mid Night Awakenings
As if my body is training for the round the clock feeds, I wake up in the middle of the night (such as now) and simply can't sleep. A portion is probably due to maternal instinct and preparation and the other portion, simply anxiety.
Just the other day I went to London Drugs to buy storage boxes. I wasn't quite sure what I was going to store in the 10 boxes I bought!!! LOL!!! As I checked out, the lady behind me said "Looks like Mama bear is Nesting!" and like that it all of a sudden made sense - Yes I AM Nesting! I want to get my home clean and organized for our new arrival!
Adding to the Labor Bag
I prepared for Lucas's (my first son) labor bag much more in advance. I suppose with this one I know now what the hospital provides and what is NOT necessary - such as packing a YOGA BALL! You should have seen what I had packed for Lucas's birth. It was insane. This time round, I have just what I need and am still adding to it as things come up.
- Clothes and blanky for our new born girl
- Nightgown and slippers for me
- Juice boxes for energy and thirst
- Car seat
- Outdoor suit for our little girl
- NB diapers and baby wipes (hospital will provide as well)
- Reminder to grab phone charger, purse, and toiletry
I've been measuring small every visit for example, my last doctors visit was at 37 weeks and I should be at 37cm from pelvic bone to top of the uterus; however, I'm at 35 weeks. I went in for an ultrasound and the technician had to measure 7 times around the baby's belly until she was confident that she's ok! So a part of me is wondering if she will be healthy! Did I not eat, sleep or rest enough?
Also I'm still waiting for maternity benefits after 1 month from applying to service canada. I certainly hope I don't have to go through maternity leave without pay again! But if I did it once, I can do it again. Just frustrating as I've been paying EI since I was 13 and have well contributed into our system.
Finally I'm anxious about the delivery. Will I be stuck in traffic? Will I have time to drop off Lucas first? As some of you know I've moved away further from Vancouver, so the distance from BC Women's Hospital worries me as I"m absolutely NOT the home birth type of gal. I NEED THE EPIDURAL!
Last but not least, I received our first gas bill from Fortis BC and its $540! We just moved in for 26 days! This is insane and if it is what it is I'm afraid we can't afford this.
Body Aches and Pains
Well my upper back is killing me along with annoying lower back pain and swollen feet. I went for a prenatal massage just the other day and it was GREAT! However, the relief didn't last long. The pelvis pains as I've read seem to be common as the baby drops lower into the pelvic bone. As for the RA flares, it hasn't been that bad (except for occasional shoulders and odd finger), so I've steered clear of taking my usual Enbrel shots this time. Overall these bodily unconforts will end soon and I know I will be overwhelmed with Love for my new baby and family that I won't even notice it.
Well thanks for joining me with this rant! I'm sure I'm not the only 38 week preggo lady waiting .....